Completely out of it---normal mode. Healing process seeming to go backwards. Sometimes referred to as "The Healing Crisis".

"Amarcord 'Ti Tocci?' (sub eng)-Italian movies subtitled". Europass Italian Language School. June 13, 2018.



 **I just read through some of this post and saw words had been altered so they read like comical non-words--ha ha, the creeps are always at it, blocking my keyboard and rewriting my words and deleting.

This Fellini is so amusing, the actors so astounding and unique in their characterization. So unlike models in high fashion circuit trying to make their lips pout open in order to portray some sexualized titillation emotion when they are about to have sex constantly for the film as the writer and directors all instruct them to do repeatedly, I guess...? The subtleties of the "evil" of conformist society and the jokes and the craziness of society is rampant in Fellini movies, even the tragic ones there is still some comedy but mostly not in the most dark ones his wife helped him to create. Not so in American film. And the terrorists who have profited for years of having me beaten, posioned nearly to death, as I struggled begging for help they went  off to the Oscars laughing with their new lovers as I sat bulging with poison dying from abuse and stress while one after the next from Whorewood came also to get their free promotion. It's a cascade of violent murder scenes with these actors. Power plays and some more original than the newer actors who appear like generic loaves of bread performing slight deviations from the white bread slicing machine that mass-produced film is now. Much of it rancid and with zero nutrition but much brain-fattening calorie intake. I sit dazed after a few hours of non-stop ultra-violence and murder constantly coming at me in the screen with no reason other than the "good" guy is fighting the "evil" mafia while the townspeople are so "good" it's a ridiculous joke to watch how carboard two-dimensional the "good" townspeople are. Watching Fellini, you laugh as the sex-crazed sometimes witch other times bad girl wanders like a hungry ghost as the men drool over how many of the women they can have consummation with. None of that in the psycho terror violence righteous mass murder spree heroic movies and superhero movies. The actors playing in the meaningless murder movies are meaninglessly slowly murdering me with these technologies and they can't stop indulging in more and more free deals out of murdering me slowly while I fight for my life every day--everyone else loves these movies so much that they consider the actors to be more pristine than all Congress combined and with more entitlement than a pantheon of gods and thusly they are exonerated and omitted from all legal consequence in this matter, and in most matters. That is the realm that Donald Trump arose on his downward escalator to run for prime time leader of the "good" townspeople" who need a hero to rescue them from the evils of me. I have been called a "woke liberal" by hard line Republicans. I have not protested, gone to any lesbian gay drag queen storytelling hours. I have only defended myself against attempted murder from a bunch of bigots as I defend my right to have self determination. A fatwah has been issued and I remain with the "good" heroes still allowed unrestrained to torture and poison and abuse me to death as I fight constantly. and write all these posts which are then hacked to discredit me. My brain blocked by tech blasting into my neocortex and other compartmentalized brain-mapping centers so I can't think clearly while fighting the hacked and blocked keyboard.

so sick every day I watch these meaningless movies. Then I get on YouTube and the hateful violent rapists and murdering bigots who have stolen my cat, had me so brutally poisoned so they would force me into stagnation so they could continue to destroy m ylife so they could parasitically feed off this contract while I can't move or do anything. Then they spend HOURS every night and morning while I'm fighting to heal as they suck the life and energy and light and hpapiness out with endless abuse and hate and murder threats because I am fighting to heal and saying no to their rape and torrture and forcing a baby out of me for their endless s hit sick rotten movie empire awards circuit of a monopolized shit circuit.

--------------

--------------------


Yesterday I heard a loud crack in the hard shell of poison latched into my left side, from cervix to lumbar in one, hard swath. A hard piece cracked off and I thought, "yeah!" soon this will be over. I thought that I could exercise with more strength today. No way. In much pain, which developed during the day until I'm just suck as usual sitting dazed as the mind control poisons, fermented, also are seeping through my body as my muscle structure strives to heal from poisons literally ripping internal tissue out along with the hard poisons.

I am stuck in this chair in front of the laptop dazed as usual. Can't get anything done, too sick to do all the nighttime routine of putting ointments on all the damaged areas of my skin (covering my entire body) from all the attacks.

I get on YouTube like the masochist mind programmed zombie that I become from endless sickness, which the people profiting off this contract have also forced upon me. They fling the videos and clips of their movies. LIke the movie I just watched which appeared at first to be a thrilled but instead was focused on brutal killing against the evil enemy with the good CIA and Intelligence Agencies going a bit over the lines of protocol but saving the "good" people who love each other--in Sicily, this movie took place.

I recounted to myself the Fellini movie Amarcord where an old man from the town spoke a soliloquy into the camera about an old tradition of burning a witch effigy in the town square. A similar town square match-off between the forces of "good" versus the "evil" mafia was likewise in this central plaza of a prototypical Southern Italian town, as depicted by Fellini.

No jokes about burning the witch. It was the pure evil mafia versus the very good and upright Italian "good" people of the village.

So contrary to the Fellini movie with the town slut going berserk looking for endless men to have sex with behind the bathrooms and on the beach and etc, very comical. Then of course the Fascists took over the town celebrating Mussolini, which Fellini made also a mockery out of while showing how brutal and Mafia-like that arm of the "good" society of "good" townspeople embraced.

------------------

I should watch that movie. I am always under so much drugging influence I sit dazed watching unbelievably violent fodder I would rather not see. How different a truly artistic movie is compared to the violent depictions of psychopathic males vying for power using killing and laughing about it, American psychopath movie society which is surrounding me looking for me somehow to provide them with a contract so they can make more and more of these types of movies, which I strongly do not want to help put into the public any longer to promote any more murderous fantasies of domination and sexualized sleaze psychopathy crappy creepy culture.

------------------

I would rather promote a new Fellini type and anyone, in particular women who have original concepts--like myself. How much people like this have worked always to destroy people like me or kill them off--the same people who are constantly coming out with movies about killing justified by "good" versus "evil" where the "Good" people of society need a hero to save them from the "evil".

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Terrorist 4th Reich global group blocked my access to bank account 32 days: Epiphany on the fragility of the global financial/economic system "grid" for "most" people who must live on the fringe of financial security and have no resources to plan for future calamities... (while those attacking me have already planned, no doubt or, more likely, it's been planned out for them). //Grade of skill-sets if critical infrastructure was, indeed, wiped-out whether temporarily or permanently (on a a scale A-F)=D (for me, personal assessment. I may be only slightly more aware of preparedness than many others.

Image
"The Doors--Ship of Fools/Live New York City (1970)". Flying Dutchman. April 2, 2021. Song #3 on album SEVEN ELEVEN SPACE CHOIR (vol 7. 1994)--EGO TRIPPIN' (@ 8:56 into album)--"Sell out! And we ain't down with that...you gotta get the HELL OUT....We're in the Land of Milk n' Honey, all the people worship Money..."--Tony's lyrics, 711 Space Choir (if you keep watching the video the back side of the album cover with artists, Tony in the back row, arm outstretched--the thin one Calvin is in the front more and a larger man--Tony was my roommate in Stuttgart along with other people). "Prince & The New Power Generation--7 (Official Music Video)". Prince. October 6, 2017. "All 7, and we'll watch them fall. They stand in the way of Love and we will smoke them all...." Because I had watched some "survival" "Bushcraft" videos, and listened to various lectures (mostly by William Cooper on the Hour of the Time...
Read more

Total Solar Eclipse Across USA April 8, 2024: A time for False Prophecy--or maybe not??!!//The "spiritual" ghostbuster *New Age* Peeps are a'freakin' out about the Solar Eclipse on Youtube, the eclipse will be tomorrow for you April 8, 2024--across the USA. I will get only the usual sunshine and demonic hate from teleporting entities (you consider almost "Gods) which is an unending shrill hate poured upon me by something akin to pestilent infestation--yet to continue-- I only realized it was going to happen last week when I clicked on a Champaign (Illinois) news channel and was informed of how to buy glasses to observe the eclipse without burning your eyeballs out.//Today, only casually, I see on my YouTube recommended channel a whole lotta New Age predictions about the blissful Paradise awaiting for the eclipse which will usher in a bright New Dawn, and the alternative prophecies are of the End Times and catastrophe, power cartel change (very doubtful), earthquakes and total shift in the political power structure--all noted as historical events during years when a total solar eclipse transversed the skies over a particular region, throughout known history (i.e. Alexander won war considered a doom, and various other shifts in paradigm occurred in regions exactly during a total solar eclipse.

Image
  "Cicadas Invade US/First Occurrence in 221 Years". Snyder Reports. April 6, 2024. "Billions of cicadas: 'No escaping' massive emergence in Illinois this year, expert explains". NBC Chicago. March 8, 2024. Oh, how the hackers are blocking keys and my hands are frozen in mid-air not able to move (which means my brain and the keyboard are under remote attack by terror technology plus implants, etc). I wondered what kind of futuristic predilection for prophecy I could amalgamate for the many seemingly syncretic occurrences that are ongoing at this time in light of prophetic insight. First, I thought that the 221-year cycle of billions of cicadas going into full birth from gestation lasting decades will occur this year in the same path that the solar eclipse will traverse. Namely, in Illinois where I grew up, every Spring, Summer and early Autumn was punctuated on my street with the very beautiful and rhythmic hum of cicadas in unison which, to me, was very rel...
Read more

Meta introducing chat bots (or already in use?) where children can access sex bot chats with AI-driven celebrity voices---how to explain to the do-nothing greed cartel reading my posts that I merely click on a video or movie or just "see" a hacked video article by the leech parasitic has-been celebrities who have achieved career zenith skyrocketing endorsement for just teleporting and torturing/poisoning me to death abusing me to death---and now, with the microchip implant hate machine of muck and that group of lascivious meaningless lying trashy filth (white trash) they can become disguised even behind the celebrity chat AI bots and teleport children or hated enemies to be tortured death skits poisoning through ever-eager and willing minority brown, black or white poorer trash minions to inflict the drugging by breaking into homes--and oh, how neighborhoods love to target a person or family even---I could go on fighting to type past the hacking, but my years of this never-ending celebrity shit-=hole cesspool congestion of dirty slime scumbags rushing to viciously abuse for hours per day, teleported to fantasy abuse S&M sex which, the promise of inflicting this on drugged and sleeping teleported victims has reached a zenith of support from the Whorewood establishment, in particular the dirty skank couch-casting prostituted creep women and their mostly divorced fellow celebrity so-called "men" who perform macho movie skits that have re-runs forever because they can't formulate a single creative idea--and so, the terror operation continues unabated. just pointing out what you all are putting into power the Democrats are all participating in attacking me so their dirty filthy careers can be also skyrocketed along with the celebrity shit and filth they rub shoulders with--so as usual there is no support or protection for me from the daily onslaught of dirty greasy greedy creeps--the major latched on murdering bigot abusers have somehow been pushed to the background, and instead the struggling to remain relevant mediocrities pushed to the heights of media attention, and seemingly the public has no more discernment of what is actual political talent or media as well---so it remains going on and on.

Image
  So, just to change my cookies settings to allow to uploading of this video below, I had to wait while the every single function froze for about 30 seconds, from opening another tab, to clicking on the "settings" icon, to all freezing as I finally got up from the chair I could then try to click on the cursor, which spun and froze, to clicking on the page which froze, and then finally being able to click on "allow all cookies"--the post above so constantly interrupted and my brain under severe memory block by the tech so they insert their cursing and ranting I must return to the page after getting away from this spot to regain my thoughts---which are literally wiped from my memory until I get out of range and then only "remember"--this happens when I am trying to calculate the most basic of financial transactions my brain becomes fixed on a number which is absolutely wrong--I count and recount the number remains--it is absolutely wrong. I am unable to coun...
Read more